Skating

Ok so, I was at skating today and one of the mums at the rink came up to me and was asking me about my skating. There's a competition on this weekend and she was asking me what day I was skating so she and her daughter could come and watch but anyways back to the point :P, I had to tell her that I'm not doing this competition. She just looked at me puzzled and I was like: I've taken a break from skating. Again she just looked at me. Like AM I SPEAKING A FOREIGN LANGUAGE?. She asked me why I stopped competing. I didn't actually know what to reply.

It got me thinking about both why I don't compete and why there is such an expectation to compete. I think the answer to both of these questions are linked. 

I don't compete because of the pressure and expectation. 

I used to compete and I would just get frustrated with myself and get really negative about my skating and I didn't like it. 

Sorry I just needed to get that out there :P I feel like writing this really helps me like understand what I'm feeling more and let's me express myself more :P

Sorry I haven't been on in a few days, I was waiting for the right thing to write about 

ThisIsMe Signing out xx